After spending 8 years with Doug, most of which living together and the last 2 being married, I'd assumed transitioning into parenthood would be natural and easy. It wasn't until reading an article in the Ladies Home Journal that I realized this change may be difficult for us, no matter how resilient we think we are.
There are times in every relationship when you need to take a step back and evaluate how supportive you are for one another and if there's something more you need yourself, or something more you need to contribute. When you work a child into the equation, everything gets a bit more complicated, and the needs of both parents may unintentionally get put on the back burner. It's for this reason that we often hear parents say that their marriage drastically changed, maybe even suffered.
Let this blog post serve as a declaration that my marriage will only be better with the addition of our little one. Rather than distract us from one another, she will bring us closer. She'll help us learn to respect each other's time and how can work as a team to tackle anything life brings our way. She'll be an everyday reminder of what our love can create, what we can endure, and how joyous the little things can be.
At this point, with me being 21 weeks along and her being just the size of a banana, she's already made me feel a million times closer to him. He's been my best friend since I was 18. We've been through wonderful times, tough times, moving great distances, saying our vows....and all of those things have made us utterly unstoppable. And now this. We've created a life that is developing and growing with every breath that I take. This experience is the ultimate blessing for us. Our little girl, our little miracle, is making our marriage a million times better.
As one would guess from the title, I am a twenty-something trying to make sense of everything around me. With my life drastically changing, I'm trying to understand the ways in which myself, my peers, my loved ones, my country, and my world are evolving. Where do we twenty-somethings fit in, and how can we make a difference?
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31 July 2012
10 February 2012
The Right to Choose
I find it hard to believe that we're at this road again. The road where one must turn left or right, picking sides on the abortion debate. I personally thought this topic would never again be so heated and create so much controversy. But here it is, rearing it's ugly head from every corner of Facebook and every propaganda-driven email. Personally, I try to avoid entering into this topic of discussion online to spare myself of any future family feuds, hate emails, etc. So while I'll omit the details of my opinion, I would like to share with you the opinion of a friend of mine. The woman below, Reina, is just that: a woman. This topic means something very intimate to her because of her anatomy. This she did not choose. She is also a mother. Her motherhood, on the other hand, is something she did choose. Below is a post I borrowed from her Facebook page that I think is very worthy of being shared.
From Reina:
"Did I ever show you guys this? I think it's kind of important. . . This is me at 22 years old, in labor with my daughter Lola. Look at the terror on that person's face. Her body was vibrating with contractions and extreme uncertainty, listening to her midwife, trying very hard not to scream and run away from everything. I think this was the first moment that I really truly realized what was aboutto happen to me. I know that sounds so incredibly immature, and I was... Man, I was the worst. The second picture is the first time i really, honestly touched my daughter with serious intent. Look at that face... I am devastated, I am so beyond moved, and terrified, and in love, and TERRIFIED.
My heart literally shattered into five million pieces.
What I am trying to say here.. Is that when I had Lola, I was selfish enough that, while I was so incredibly happy to welcome her into this world, I was also so saddened by the end of my own life, that it took me a while to truly understand what had happened. That this person ruined me, tore me down, wrecked everything I had worked so hard to become, but thank God. Because that person was kinda awful. My life was a shit show, and she came bursting into this world and shattered it all, only to rebuild me into someone who I am insanely proud to be. To say that she saved my life is by far, the understatement of the year. Everything that she is, is everything I always wanted to be. She constantly challenges every fiber of my being, to be more, want more, live more, breathe more.
The beautiful part is that I had the right to choose this. That deep down inside, I knew that I had the ability and support to pull myself together, and rock the shit out of motherhood. But, not everyone has the ability to do this, and their circumstances are not as cushy, and beautiful as mine. Every woman on this planet has a right to make this choice depending on their own life, and divine purpose. The only person who Can make this decision, is the woman it is happening to. And it is her right to make that decision, without anyone else butting in and giving their opinion. There.. And that, my friends, ends my serious run for the day. Back to our regular scheduled fun times."
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