But that's essentially what this blog is about: finding a balance between work and personal time while struggling with what I think are normal issues for someone my age.
You have to prioritize and decide to handle the weekend argument you had with your mother tomorrow so today you can both get other things done. She'll cool down, and I'll get my guest room ready for my guests arriving on Friday. She'll think about our tiff in her own way, and I'll think about it while cleaning ferociously. Tomorrow we can regroup.
So each day I'm figuring out what's truly important to me that day, at that moment. What needs to be handled and what's worth stressing over. The truth of the matter is that I'm beginning to not stress much at all. Anyone reading this that knows me in the slightest probably thinks I'm BS-ing right now: "Is this the same girl who had a panic attack over a paper in 9th grade? Or the girl who stood outside Beury Hall her sophomore year in college crying her eyes out before her Biology final?" Yea- that's me. But living in the south, and also living with a much more relaxed fiance, has helped me calm my nerves a bit and slow down.
As of today I have 92 days until my wedding, and the only reason I know that exact number is because theknot.com tells me when I log in. That website alone has reduced my stress in half! If you happen to be planning a wedding, use it! It gives you a timeline of when you should have certain tasks completed, a tool for budgeting all your wedding expenses, and a sheet to keep track of payments and deposits already made with a convenient little (or big) total at the bottom of what you still have to pay out. Needless to say, the website helps to free up what little time I have at the end of the day, after gym time and work, to focus on other things or to just unwind.
